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Ok so I am getting sick of my relationship with food. First of all, why is it that it is only girls who seem to have relationships with food? To Nathan, food is food. That's all it is, something you do 3 or less times a day to sustain your body. Sure, he indulges sometimes, but he doesn't feel the need to. He just likes his jellies now and then.For me? Food is so much more than sustainence; it is an activity, a reward, a pleasure, a guilty habit, a friend and an enemy. I eat when I'm with friends, when I'm alone, I eat to celebrate or to commiserate, to reward myself for a job well done and to console myself for a job not done. Food is the great win-win in my life; chocolate if I do, chocolate if I don't. Just as long as I chocolate!
And I am getting sick of it.
Even though I am not seriously overweight, I definately have a few kilos I want to shift, and I am not pleased with my eating habits They say you are what you eat, and it is true! In the change room yesterday, my thighs looked like an Aero bar and my waist had somehow turned into a donut! I am so sick of thinking about food or trying not to. I just want to find the balance that you automatically had when you were little. Eat when you are hungry. Stop when you are not.
I just can't find the balance between over-indulging or over-obsessing.
Monday: Rachy wakes up and says, 'Right, I'm sick of this. I am going to eat healthy and in moderation. Not go on a diet, not try to get skinny, I am just going to be sensible. Balanced.
Monday night; Oh wow, I ate really well. This isn't so hard.
Tuesday: Hmm, maybe I should have this sandwhich without butter. In fact, do I really need this meatless, cheeseless, mayo-less, 5-salad-veggie sandwhich at all? Maybe I will just have an apple.
Tuesday night; I'm hungry. For all this hard work, I better look HOT soon!!
Wednesday morning: Hang on wasn't I trying to be sensible for health, not obsessive for appearance?
Wednesday morning tea: I geuss I can have a little cupcake, then. That's sensible. Not extreme.
Wednesday afternoon: Everyone has biscuits for afternoon tea. That's ok, right? Nice and balanced Rach.
Wednesday evening: ok just a little ice cream for desert....
Later that evening: ...and some chocolate with my cuppa...
In bed that night: Great, I'm eating crap again. I won't lose weight at this rate.
Thursday morning: either: 'Ok that's it! Size 8 here I come!'
or 'Stuff it, I've already blown it. Bring on the chocolate'
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...or I have a few days of moderation that slowly morphs back into my half-a-block-a-day habit.How do you guys do food? And how do we get that healthy: 'Eat to live, not live to eat' thing happening without either thinking about food ALL the time or obsessing about getting thin?
One of the reasons I have never undertaken a spiritual fast is because I know I would get all distracted with getting skinny. I am thinking of doing a sugar fast. Just to get some prayerful balance, not try to change anything else, just ditch all the sweets and pray a bit more when I would normally be eating choc, etc. What do you guys reckon?
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Rachy, I so indentify with your struggle, and you're so right, you obsess if you do, obsess if you don't.
I'll be really interested to hear others views on this too. I also began this week with an eat healthy mindset, and, well... it's friday now and I haven't done great.
Thanks for being honest girl!
Love ya, Bec xx
Rachy, I hope you are not offended but I just about wet myself laughing. I identify with everything you have just written, except when I try the challenge I have usually failed by the Monday arvo. So far this week I have had maccas 3 times. twice just yesterday, you know it's bad when you can't decide what to have because you are over the stuff on the menu.
How do you find the balance?? I can't answer that but I know for me food is my best friend. It's there when I am happy and it's there when I am sad, it never judges or condemns me for the choices I make.
Thank you for sharing what I think lots of us feel
LOve You xoxoxo
Oh my goodness... I know! But to be honest I feel like I'm on my way to conquering this. The diet I went on late last year, was to lose a few kilos but also to re-ignite my sluggish metabolism. This few weeks of hard work has not only allowed me to lose that little bit of extra weight, but has released me from thinking about food all the time! I'm serious! I'm NOT ever into diets but wanted to go into being 30 feeling the best possible, NO excuses. we talk about healthy spiritual lives, but I want a healthy physical life so that I can put my all into the spiritual side. If I didn't change now and break the constant nagging of what I should and shouldn 't be eating, I never would. So I did it! I still have a heap of choccy some nights too. I know a specific diet doesn't fit everyone's lifestyle, but I say do a few weeks of non negotiable hard work to reap the benefits later - I've never felt better!!! Loveya xx
I agree! I love to pick! I will not eat breakfast, lunch and a small dinner but then put the kids to bed and gimme the tv or something and I will eat myself silly.
Since Kai got diabetes, it's honestly shown me so much about food, what it does to my body and the bad choices I was giving to not just myslef but my family.
Don't get me wrong - I still pig out sometimes, I think we all need to but its just having that greater understanding.
I think this is a battle most girls battle at least once a week! LOL ...
Love the post ... love ya xoxoxo
Rachy! Thanks for sharing honestly. I appreciate the reality of life, sometimes I am so tempted to get the take away because it's easier and life is busy. But then I think about the fact that I y children's mouths and that challenges me enough to think again. And for that late night munchy craving I try and make sure I have some of my favourite fruits around so that I go for them instead. I love love love, rasperberry, boysenberry, strawberry, watermelon and grapes. So when I feel the munchies after the kids have gone to bed, I just grab a plate full of these and eat myself silly until I am full!! The other thing I try and avoid doing is buying sweet junky stuff when I do the grocery shop. I find if I didn't buy it in my weekly shop I am less motivated to go out again and get it. Although I do have the occasional temptation to send Corey out to get me some choccy!
The other thing I have made a big effort to do in my life is to do some form of daily exercise. I am not big into diets either cos I see that I need to be able to start a habit that is realistic and sustainable. I find diets help give you a kick start but exercising is long term for me. And then I don't have to watch every little calorie. I just be sensible about my diet. And I have to tell you it's one of the best things I have done for myself. I feel soooo good after a week of exercise. I had to start it slow. And I had to ask Corey to help. But now I am more motivated to do it because I feel so much better. More energy, more into life, more positive - which we all need. I am addicted to that! And it hasn't been easy. Having young children presents some challenges to regular exercise. So we invested in a teadmill and it has been well worth it.
Just want to say to you all, this is more than just about what you eat. It's also about doing something for yourself and realising that this adds to your life. You are all worth it so don't give up. xx
ok girlies you have inspired me once again. Helen I am so inspired that you were able to follow through with your eating plan. I was watching you thinking, oh my goodness, i am glad it is not me kicking the carbs, and yet you look so healthy and happy now. I agree with you all, it is time to get with the program. Love the tips, Sim, i want a treadmill, we just don't have room! I used to love going to the gym but the travel was killer! you girls have given me lots of food for thought, pardon the pun! lol
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